Park Eun Kyung ~Goddess..
As days goes by,i find myself getting attached to Cherry.I wanted to know what she feel,what she did,what she think...and strangely,i'm starting to please her in every way.Her smile mesmerized me,i will do anything just to see her smile...i am so confuse.
It is weird sometimes how things come back.
Seem so yesterday,when i am still laughing and smiling on this day..but yea,i guess sometimes people dont stay.Everything changes.
But here am i,still standing where am i..trapped inside a room..
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Thursday, November 20, 2008
1:09 AM
Yea yea yea,i know i know ~! 'Dont think too much' right
I lost count of how many times i get those yesterday,goddddd.
Well,not half bad i guess,at least it show that people care? lolz
Today was 'so-so' day
Had a conversation with Jillian,stories way back long during our NS camp.
Like "you know last time you did this did that?you was with this with that?" that kind of stuffs
LOL,i think i piss her off in the end of the talk,haha,sorry Jill,please dont mad at me k? =p
AS usual,routines are so darn fixed,everyday i woke up in the morning,head straight to washroom,done everything and off to coll.I am not saying that i dont like those but heck man,please god,pleaseeeeee sparkkk my LIFE~! and i was so blur today this morning and sent a blur blur message to someone,unbelieveable~!
I meet up with aunty Ying before the class,went for a drink.Yea,we're talk pretty much about everything if you ask me and again ' bla bla bla bla Chen,you think too much'
WTH is wrong with 'dont think much'???
I know i know,maybe i see too in front.I remember one phrase very very veryyyy cleary from Vince yesterday.
"How old are you now?"
"Think bout the future?"
Hmnn...maybe because that's who i am.I am surrounded by great people sometimes.Looking at them made me feel that i am so timid,so powerless,so helpless~!I am afraid that i screw up,the feeling,once is more than enough.I was afraid of getting lost,throw into a corner,getting hurt again.I dont want to get drown for nothing again~!
Me : "How do you define 'success'?"
Ying : "ME"
Me : "LOL,in detail please"
Ying : "Understanding,request,demand,accept,honestly,truth,love and courage."
Me : "How do you define 'future'?"
Ying : "Tomorrow"
Me : "Detail"
Ying : "Just take it this way,you think too ahead,and you see too far.Yes,it's not a bad thing,you gave people assurance,but what can you do bout it? embrace whatever you have right now,if you think you have feeling to her then just go for it,you always told me not to hesitate but you are right now.You afraid of not getting any back? then tell her,ask her,courage la uncle~!"
Me : "How do you define 'maintain'
Ying : "Sex"
Me : "LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL,detail"
Ying : "Spark,shared your feeling,it's ok to have up and down,me and ur dude too,we often argue but the sweet things is he always come back to me.Being insecure is common.It because we care,we hope that our half get the best,we afraid that we cant give them the best.I not asking him to change,i love him for who he is."
Yea Rightttttttttt~!
AUNTY I TOOK OUT COURAGE AND TOLD HER AND GOD DAMMIT I SCREW SHIT UP~!
Uhhh,she's probably laughing when she's reading this~! THIS AINT OVER YOU CLOWN~!
But at least,i did something which i thought 'valueable'
I said out the "L" words.Yea,it's my first time to her.Maybe all these time i was afraid that i aint getting any back once i said it out.Im too afraid to lost thingggsss,hopes,feeling,etc etc.The scar is still here,must thanks my EX FOR THIS crap shit thingy~! Uhhh,i get grumpy and emo everytime i think bout that.
ANYWAYYYYYYY
"Dont think too much" i know i know i knowwwwww
This week is pretty rush on the other hand,assignments,quizs,projects,presentations,bla bla bla.
Everything is gushing in,it's funny that i am still able to sit here,typing this thing.
Anyone know what is Qee toys? I think most of us seen it,just that we dont know that thing is Qee toys.
I am working on the design of a Qee Toy~!!
'Bear Q'
Familiar?
I just finish on the actual template,now need to decide on the design for pose,colour,theme and everything.UHHHH,pretty interesting but will be much much more simple IF WE CAN DO IT THRU COM~!
People,if you have any ideas,inspire meeee~!
These photos were taken using a DSLR camera,uhh,just some random shots,i am still newbie in the photography thingy.
I WANT DSLR CAMERA~!
But chio-expensive laaaa~! how to afford~!
Christmas is coming,dear santa,i wish for a DSLR camera k? drop one me please~!
But dont break the lens or any other parts k? :P
Uhh,back to the working~!
It is raining now
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Tuesday, November 18, 2008
11:44 PM
In a perfect world
One we've never known
We would never need
To face the world aloneThey can have their world
We'll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smartBut somewhere in my
secret heartI know
love will find a wayAnywhere I go, I'm
homeIf you are there beside me
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a wayI was so
afraidNow I realize
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies
There's a perfect world
Shining in your eyes
And if
only they could feel it, too
The
happiness I feel with youThey'd
know love will find a wayAnywhere we go, we're home
If we are there together
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that
I've found youLove will find a way
I know love will find a way
Anywhere I go, I'm home
If we are there together
Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way
I know love will find a way
I know love will find a way
LoLz,i just realize that my brain has it own brain.Subconsiouly it was functioning 24/7,thinking things that i dont want to think.I get it alot,people used to tell me 'dont think too much' i think too much? more than less if you ask me~!
Im too far to perfect,tooo muchhh flawwwss.There are too many things i cant do,im not independent,i need someone to cling one,a place where i can always go to,where i can rest my head.
!~CONFESSION~!
I . AM . SORRY . THAT . I . AM .WEAK . I . AM . SORRY . THAT . I . AM . HELPLESS. I . AM . SORRY . THAT . I . AM . DULL. I . AM . SORRY . THAT . I . AM . STUPID . I . AM . SORRY . THAT . I . AM . NO . GOOD . I . AM . SORRY . FOR . EVERYTHING .
uhhhh,emotion running high... extremely especially the inside.
I guess im not exactly the guy-type that people is expecting.WHY AM I NOT A GIRL,I WANT TO BE A PRINCESS TOO~! lolz
Sigh...
Anyway,im just who am i.
Trying to bring happiness to people around me,keeping my smile all the time,so people..smile for me please~!!!!!!
It never rain today
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Monday, November 17, 2008
10:40 PM
A date with a mermaid : Chapter 2
yay~ we went out again~!
Still the same me,nervous everytime before a date,but i guess i kinda getting used to it already.
We went to Sunway,lolz,i dont want to mention my 'bobo-ness' during the journey,yea yea im bad at geography,lolz,have to take a biggggggg turn when i can simply access from her place~! I bet she's laughing when she reading this -.- stop laughing and start missing me will be a better option =P
'The Mermaid'
'The Crab,no more crabby pose'Reaching around 12,had our dinner at dont know what what bbq,is the 2nd i been there
'The BBQ thingy'
Uh,nowadays i cant eat much,just stuff something into my stomach and done,i'm full -.- my stomach shrink?
NEXT STOP~!
Yea,it's been a while since the last time i skate,luciky,my skill never rust.The last time i was here was with aunty Ying and was like one and a half year ago? i forgot.
'Skating shoes'
'Gloves'
'Me and her'
Is a shame i must admit,that the mermaid never fall as i expected,no heroic scene for me.LOL,but i doubt i can hold my laughter if she fall in front of me,maybe after the laugh only heroic scene eh~!!! HAHA
We skate for like hours,tiredddd~!
Head for movies,Madagascar 2 "I like to Move it move it~!"
Quite nice if you ask me.
Dinnerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~!!!!
'Sakae Sushi'
'Mermaid so-called-normal sushi'
'My curry dont-know-what-what-what'
That's all for the day~! I am tired,i talk,i play,i laugh and i enjoy~!!!
Last but not least
'US'
'I know,it's sweet~!'
It was raining today
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Saturday, November 15, 2008
1:32 AM
You are The Emperor
Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.
The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.
The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Wednesday, November 12, 2008
11:20 PM
Love & Loveless : Act 4
It's been quite a time since i live here with her.I guess she wasnt so bad afterall,she feed me enough,provided me a place to stay,in exchange for me doing all her chores,washing and cleaning,prepare the food,do the laundry...sigh..what else can i asked for..
Che : "YESSSSSS~! My first date with him tomorrow"
Ed : "huh..ok"
Che : " 'huh..ok' is all you can say~!"
Ed : "Then? what are you expecting?"
Che : "You said you're gonna help me~!!! "
Ed : "...Yea,i remember i said those before.."
During that night,something changed my feeling towards her,i dont know what was that,her smile brought strange feeling to me,to my heart,yea..it's strange...
The next morning..
Che : " Tadaaaaaaa~ behold,the arrival of pretties princess on earth~!!!"
Ed : " Nothing special"
Che : " Why cant you be nice to me once in a while~!!"
Ed : " Cant help it,i cant lie"
Che : " Tzh,fine~!" (grumpy grumpy) hmn...he's late~!"
Ed : " You're the one being too early,an hour early? puh-lease"
Che : " (Ignoring) OMG,he's here he's here he's here he's here,how's my hair? i look fine right?"
Ed : " Just go~!"
And there am i,hiding in the corner,watching them.At some point i dont felt so good.All i can think of is what so special about that guy,but then when i saw the smile on her face,i smile too myself.What is this feel?
"Drop of Love"
I found something on my computer,and yes it's sweet~!!!! Memories,everything seem so yesterday,cant believe that i'm so big and tall now.
"Me,mum and baby sis"
"Me and baby sis"
"Genting"
"In my Tadika Uniform with sis"
"Chinese New year"
"Selamba face me with sis"
"The Hilarious part"
So so so sweet,and yes i am CUTE and STILL IS nowadays~! MUAHAH
Meet up with someone today.Trying to cheer her up due to what happened the other day.Yea,my BF and her were sad,i can feel it.I comfort both of them,well..knowing my BF,typical him he'll probably ok in some time,i did my part in comforting him.He's strong after all.A guy is supposed to be macho til the end~!
I tried to gave her some surprise,but actually it wasnt such a surprise,i am too 'wood' for these kind of stuff.I'll keep the 'surprise' to myself~! so dont bother asking~!
"As usual,hard time taking her pic"
"Finally..not really a success"
"Mine with a girl,which one is better?"
Love sometimes bring so much pains,sufferings,and most importantly they leave scars.Scars that never go away,that never wash away no matter how much you wanted it too.It blind us,making us lost in direction,trapping us at a place.
But at the same time,Love bring a lot of joys,smiles,sweets,and for me,a hope.
It's confusing,complicated and it's not perfect in every way.But because it's not perfect,that is why it is beautiful.
I dont know how far i can cling on to my hope,but for now,i'll just go with flow and see what's coming.I dont want to regret when everything is gone.So people,i need lotsa luck~! please spare me some~!
"Me and Charlie"
Credit to her,i feel i damm uber good looking lo in this pic,HAHA
It was raining today
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Tuesday, November 11, 2008
12:11 AM
-I MUST SAY IT AGAIN-
Final Fantasy series never fail to impress me~!
I just finish Final Fantasy VII : Crisis Core days ago.I am still fascinated by the game til now,the gameplay,the characters,the STORY,everything was so so so damm uber awesome~!
"Crisis Core - Final Fantasy VII-"
Basically it's all bout the begining of the FF VII series,where Sephiroth is still a good guy and Cloud is still a wuss.The main character is Jack Fair,well,the only character you can play is him anyway.
"
Jack Fair with Tseng behind"
The main story was quite short,can probably finish up around 1 or 2 days.Still,i must say a MUST for every FF's fan.I cannot say how great the game is but yea,
GREAT
"Clockwise from top,Cloud,Aerith,Sephiroth,Tseng,Jack,Cissnei,Genesis,Angeal"
Someone is so sweet and lovely today,made me feel so loved~!
Maybe it's just me,but it doesnt did any harm right?
Somehow it motivated me to cling on to my hope,i guess i should say thanks..
Never hesitate to heart you
It never rain today
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
❤ Monday, November 10, 2008
12:21 AM
MOVE ON!
Yesterday and today was a great day i supposed,thou nothing really happened but people say no news is good news right,aha.
Something funny happened yesterday night.Before i went to bed,laying on my bed suddenly i remember some scent,people's aroma.Yea i know it's weird,but i smell people especially ladies,i guess that make me pretty abnormal?
Closing my eyes,seconds before moving into dreamland,and suddenly this aroma went thru my nose.I can smell her,like she was around.The minute i do,i straight away open my eyes and look at around me~! It's funny how things begin but i guess it recall some memories.
Today went out to Sg.wang and Lot 10 to shop with Alvin and Mk.Alvin wanted to get his laptop and Mk wanted to buy one.
"Our breakfast at Mcd"
"Mcd me"
AND I FINALLY CHANGE MY SPEC~!
I wanted to change mine since ages ago~!
"My new addicted Pink & Purple"
At first i was looking for something like shinning or light pink,but they only have those on the branded.There is one which i like so much but it's overprice,ALOT. RM6xx just for the frame~! GODDDD~!
Mk lost the parking ticket when we're on our way home,and I MANAGED TO FIND IT,he dropped it when walking,mostly because he's too excited cause he's getting a new laptop.Alvin and I went to Lot 10 for some window shopping after that,I SAW ALOT OF NICE,CHIO-NICE,UBER-NICE clothes~! I wanted to buy them so so soooo muchhh~! Unfortunately,my wallet was running dry,sad.
"Lot 10 me"
My uncle was celebrating his 58th birthday today,i went for dinner just before going out again for yum cha session with the dudes.
"My strawberry"
"Saw this during the yum cha session -me heart you-"
Things never really move on,the whole thing was like stopping there,halt there.
My feeling....well,growing stronger?falling apart?shaking?having the pause there? I was quite de motivated since the incident happened,even thou things are back to normal now,but still....i guess my heart is fragile,doesnt rebound that much.
Anyway,Life goes on,keeping the smile on my face all the time.
You too,ooo and i wish someone get well soon too k,lotsa love and care~!!!!!
"Take care..."
It was raining today
Love
Enjoying every single drop of it...
Just a guy with little bit of everything ^^
TAGGY~Y
"Us"
"The Terminal"
"Picture of the day"
